LAST FRIDAY I discovered something which resulted in mixed feelings. One minute I feel anger but the next I find my head spinning with questions just like a curious child. I want to know the truth but I don’t know where and how to start.
I am a very transparent person, people close to me know that. I cannot conceal anger, pain, sadness especially happiness. It just shows. But over the weekend, I had to feign sadness. I didn’t want to affect the people around me. More than that, I didn’t want to do something which I would later regret.
Truth is, I woke up this morning with the matter still in my head. I couldn’t recover from it because it’s really mind-boggling.
What I’m experiencing right now could be what those with terminal cancer are going through. Or maybe a student who’s had straight A’s in school but failed to pass the bar or the board exam. Perhaps, a government official who only had the best of intentions for his country but lost in the elections would also feel demoralized. Even women who found out about the escapades of their cheating boyfriends or husbands with their mistresses wound definitely understand my predicament.
Questions, questions, questions, I’ve never been this stressed and bothered with questions.